Posted by Samara Collins on Tuesday, October 26, 2010
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I had a good appointment with my midwife today. My health visitor had already spoken to the team of midwives about my anxiety and she completely understood and is arranging for a scan this week or next week. There is no reason to believe anything is wrong and rationally, I know that as little man is kicking away lots and I am growing big and feeling well, plus the last few scans have looked good. However, it is so very scary being pregnant again and any reassurances I can get, I will take.
I also talked to the midwife about my nerves over the birth (this one will be born by C-Section as Sadie was due to the emotional trauma and due to it being so close to my last C-Section). I am nervous that the similarity of the circumstances may be overwhelmingly tough and I know that it will involve a coupleof days in hospital. There's nothing we can do to avoid that and I want to stay at the same hospital as I know the staff and trust the team there but it will be a very bittersweet time.
Other than seeing the midwife and a visit from my mum, I have hibernated today. It feels like the right move today and I'll see what tomorrow brings. Just giving myself a break to handle the emotions. It all feels so overwhelming right now, so I just prefer being home where I feel less vulnerable. It won't be forever though. I know I need to toughen back up when I can.
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