Browsing Archive: December, 2011

Getting easier again

Posted by Samara Collins on Saturday, December 31, 2011, In : Blog 
Happy to report that after a rocky few days,  I am starting to pick up again and the grief is more under control.  That was a scary dark period, but I needed to go all the way down to come up feeling strong again.  Starting to feel human and more like me again.
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Rock bottom

Posted by Samara Collins on Thursday, December 29, 2011, In : Blog 
Well today I can honestly say I hit the bottom again.  I can't bear to see anyone and just cannot get myself together properly.  But, the good thing about hitting rock bottom is that you always come back up again, so thats a definite positive.  I just feel very tired of struggling each day to be ok - I probably just needed to let myself be honest. I won'tlet myself stay at this level but today I am wallowing in it.  Its hard for Drew.  He is so good with me and probably the only person I ever...
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Sadie's 2nd Birthday fast approaching

Posted by Samara Collins on Wednesday, December 28, 2011, In : Blog 
The Christmas festivities, Sadie's 2nd Birthday and a new year all combine to feel very hard really.  It feels like I am constantly reliving what happened and still desperately wishing that there was a way I could hold Sadie for just another minute.  The ache I feel all the time, feels very heavy now and one of the hardest parts is realising this will never go -she is never coming back to us and I often wonder how I will adjust and learn to live with this, but I know that I'll find it manageb...
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11/12/11 Update

Posted by Samara Collins on Sunday, December 11, 2011, In : Blog 
I've thought a lot about grief over the last few weeks because although its always there and always painful, I have felt the loss and sadness much more acutely in recent weeks than I have for a little while and this took me by surprise.  I realised that sometimes we get used to the grief and the shock of Sadie's death ebbs away a little, but at certain times it hits like asledgehammer and repeatedly leave you feeling devastated inside.  I think this is often the case against a backdrop of rea...
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Below are 2 articles I have written for the SOFT Newlsetter.  SOFT is a charity Support Organisation for Families of Trisomy. 

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