Browsing Archive: May, 2011

Strange time

Posted by Samara Collins on Friday, May 20, 2011, In : Blog 
I had a good week and Pat an dI have been out a fair bit at post-natal group and seeing some friends and family.  Its been an easier week grief-wise and although it never leaves me flly I have had some laughs and even went out to dinner at a friend's with a few of my girlfriends last night which was really nice.  I'm feeling a bit lower today so Pat and I went out briefly with my mum but we're having a sofa afternoon now so I can recharge.  I am trying to fight the sadness but I think I may h...
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Quick Blog

Posted by Samara Collins on Monday, May 16, 2011, In : Blog 
Pat is having a nap so I am quickly updating my blog.

Had a lovely weekend... Seen a few friends and family, went to the gym (!) and also been for some walks. Pat's Nana comes to sit for him for a couple of hours most Sunday afternoons whilst Drew and I go for a long walk to blow the cobwebs away.  Drew and I always have our best talks when we walk.  I always feel better for them.  Pat gets to spend time with his Nana.  His grandparents love sitting for Pat and he really enjoys being with them...
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Update 10/05/11

Posted by Samara Collins on Tuesday, May 10, 2011, In : Blog 
Its hard to believe that 8 months has passed since Sadie died.  So much has happened and yet it still feels like yesterday.  Today has hit me hard possibly because I have been doing quite well in recent weeks.  I miss Sadie so much and I feel overwhelmed by how sad I feel trying to accept she has gone.  Sadie was such a happy, bright little girl.  yes, she was had severe disabilities and had her struggles because of this, but she was so brave and she enjoyed the life that she had. She was suc...
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Update 09/05/11

Posted by Samara Collins on Monday, May 9, 2011, In : Blog 
Well its been a while since my last post as I have been so busy.  This site-builder doesn't allow me to paste text, so I have to quickly type my blog and save it there and then, which isn't ideal.

So much has happened these past few weeks.  The grief has been very hard and I am realising that as I have been told, we have to learn to live with the grief rather than expect it to fade.  It takes a bit of managing!  Some days, without warning, I plummet to depths of sadness, disbelief and despair ...
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Below are 2 articles I have written for the SOFT Newlsetter.  SOFT is a charity Support Organisation for Families of Trisomy. 

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About Me

Samara Collins I'm Samara Collins (nee Samara Lawrence) and I'm 35 years old. I live in a village called Mobberley in Cheshire with my husband Drew, our son, Patrick (born 17/02/11) and our cat, Clive. Our daughter, Sadie was born on 30/12/09. 24 hours after her birth we were told she had Edwards Syndrome (Trisomy 18) and a large VSD (hole in her heart) and would die very soon. She passed away aged 8 & 1/2 months on 10/09/10. Sadie was our first child and she was a wonderful surprise after 18 months of trying to conceive and then being told I was infertile! She is our miracle. I immediately loved being a mummy and miss Sadie terribly. I was made redundant shortly after Sadie was born. We are strong but we still focus on remaining so and on maintaining normality and enjoying our son, Pat. Grieving is a weird process and totally unavoidable. I think I'm doing OK most days but when I need to express myself and the grief becomes overwhelming and isolating I find writing really helps me.

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