Drew and I had a lovely new year.  Last new year had been tough because the memory of new year's eve 2009 was hideous and vivid as we were told that Sadie was going to die and that there was nothing that could be done.  It was the most painful day of my life. So, I hadn't held any hope for this year, but Drew went to a huge effort and got busy preparing lovely food and keeping us both topped up with champagne as we reminisced in the year gone by and looked forward to the year ahead with excitement.  It's amazing how you can go from such a huge low to a big high in a matter of hours with a bit of effort.  I realise that every now and then you have to sink into the grief and let the despair wash over you but having done that, life becomes easier and happy again in time. 

Like most parents of young babies, we had drifted off to sleep before midnight and I woke up on new years day feeling hopeful and excited about the year ahead.  We're just home from a nice long walk in Tatton Park and we seem to be feeling a lot lighter and happier again.

Back to work for me tomorrow - I am doing an interim role and its going well.  I'm enjoying being back at work after so long and hoping it continues all being well!

I want to wish all my blog readers a very happy 2012!  Thanks for reading about Sadie and how we're doing.  I'm sure its not easy reading and I do often cringe about how open I often am, but it seems to be the right thing to do so far.

Best wishes xx