Posted by Samara Collins on Sunday, March 18, 2012
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Missed Sadie so much today. I had thought today may not be so bad but when I sat for a moment on my own I realised how sad I felt and just could have curled up and spent the day crying. Generally though, after a good cry I can get on with the rest of the day. Drew had purposely kept the plans minimal so we just headed offfor a walk with Pat. We had a lovely day, but I have had a heavier heart all day. I have wondered about my other bereaved parent friends and hope their days have been peaceful.
It was funny because I realised today how poor my memory has become - both short and long term. Many thing that happened prior to Sadie's arrival are a real blur and I am so forgetful on a daily basis. I know many people report baby brain, but I do wonderif grief causes memory blocks. I must look into this and see what other people find and if there is anything I can do as its becoming frustrating and also alarming. Especially as some of my memories of Sadie are becoming poorer and that is just dreadful. I will look into it further - if I can remember to do so!!
I received a lovely bunch of daffodils from the minister at our church today - he sent them via my mum-in-law. I was really touched that he did that and sometimes its a small gesture like that which can really give you a boost!
Pat has really enjoyed his weekend -lots of fun with his grandparents and he had made a great card for me at nursery. I have definitely counted my blessings today.
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