I am so busy these days as any mum is.  I just thought I'd updtae quickly to say I am doing OK.  Mothers' Day was a tough one this year.  The day itself was fine, but I found the approach difficult - just being aware that it was coming up.  I am still working hard with the balance of being in the depths of grief and yet being overjoyed with Pat,  Pat is truly amazing.  The grief is still so raw though and there appears to be no way round it.  I wish I had time to post more, but I will try to log in later in the week.  All in all life is good right now but the grief is still very acute.