Browsing Archive: February, 2011

Sadie became a big sister

Posted by Samara Collins on Wednesday, February 23, 2011, In : Blog

On 17/02/2011 Patrick Richard Collins was born by CSection weighing 6lb10oz. Pat is absolutely gorgeous and we are so thrilled to have him. We feel utterly blessed to have had 2 beautiful babies and although Sadie is in Heaven we know she is watching over Pat.

Being pregnant with Pat was truly terrifying. I tried my best to relax and enjoy it, but we were so afraid to bring another baby into the world but we are so happy to have Pat here. As we work our way through our grief we know Pat wi...
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15/02/11 Quick Update

Posted by Samara Collins on Tuesday, February 15, 2011, In : Blog

Well it's 5.20pm and its fair to say the nerves are getting to Drew and me. Drew came home quite early from work as he just cannot concentrate now. We are both hugely anxious and cannot help worrying about the baby being poorly in some way. There are so many fears attached to that as we know now just how hard it is to have a child who is living with a disability, both from living through that with Sadie and from knowing parents and their children who are living with that reality. We are sc...
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07/02/11

Posted by Samara Collins on Monday, February 7, 2011, In : Blog

I seem to become increasingly anxious. Anxiety and intense grief do battle in my head and heart constantly. I have only 10 days until baby will be here, but I am finding the terror hard to bear.

Poor Drew is having to put up with a lot and is doing his best to keep me calm whilst dealing with his own grief and worries. For us, our experience of parenting has always been tough. Sadie was wonderful and we enjoyed every moment with her, but it was so hard too. It was very intense - always know...
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03/02/11

Posted by Samara Collins on Thursday, February 3, 2011, In : Blog

Nothing much to update really! I've been out a little in the last 2 weeks but now just wanting to stay at home. The anxiety and grief are very hard to handle together and I am left with very low resources and I am very emotional. I think the hormones add to this.

My bump is getting huge and I am 37 weeks (full term) tomorrow. Our little boy will be here 2 weeks today and I will just be so glad to know he is safe and healthy and I can't wait to give him lots of cuddles. Being pregnant whils...
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